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Heaven By Your Side

(adapted from MJL vblog)

First, I would like to ask an apology to Mr. M.J. Lontoc for adapting his video blog entitled “Heaven by Your Side” without his consent. Otep can be described as the modern day Francisco Balagtas. Dedicates the video to AOR his one true love (or as he fondly called “Che-Che”), He narrates how they have started, from the time he met her, up to the moment that their friendship bloom into a “relationship” with ups and downs but never gives up. A typical teen-age love story and yet inspiring.

During our lolos (grandfather) era, they serenade our lolas (grandmother) through their guitars. From the guitar, they were able to express their selves the love they have for our lolas. The same thing for Otep, he uses the modern technology thru facebook and innovates the courtship. He even had back ground music in it.

Young it may seem but I only wish that their love last long. So fortunate with each other that they have found the love so true that everyone dreams about.

Here’s the transcription of his vblog. May you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy watching his vblog.

MJL

MJL

Kumusta? Nga pala ako si Otep. Meron lang sana akong gustong i-kwento eh, tungkol sa nangyari sa buhay ko. Tungkol sa lovelife ko, tungkol sa babaeng nakilala ko at minahal ko nang lubos. Pangalan niya Anshirl, kung tawagin ko siya minsan Che-che. Pero alam mo simula nang makilala ko siya, madami nang nagbago, siya nag dahilan kung bakit ako nagbago. Siguro kung iisipin, sa dami-daming babaeng nakilala ko siya lang ang bukod tanging nakapagpabago sa akin. Tanggal ang bisyo ko, sigarilyo pati alak.

Nagsimula ang lahat nang makilala ko siya sa eskwelahan. Suplada pa nga niya noong una, tinatawag ko hindi ako pinapansin. Nang hindi nagtagal syempre siguro naawa pinansin na rin ako. Hanggang sa magka-text na kami, hanggang sa ayun alam mo na sinagot na niya ako. Una aaminin ko hindi ko siya minahal kaagad, pero alam mo paglipas nang panahon parang nare-realize ko na iba na ang nararamdaman ko kapag kasama ko na siya. Iba na yung mga nakikita ko (nada), pagka kausap ko na siya, iba na yung nararamdaman ko. Tapos pag hawak ko na yung kamay niya para bang may limpak, ewan ko kung bakit, hindi ka maniniwala ano? Pero ang totoo iba talaga ang nararamdaman ko kapag siya kasama ko. Hindi ko maipaliwanag (sa bu) sa buong buhay ko na ngayon lang nangyari. Siguro sabi nila kapag mahal mo ang isang tao ganyan ang nararamdaman mo.

Alam mo ba, pag kami ang magkasama ang daming nangyayari? Minsan may away pa nga, nakatambay kami sa park usap ng konti, bolahan, asaran, nagkakapikonan. Pero syempre sa bandang huli nagiging masaya, di tulad ng iba kapag mga ganun eksena di ba nag-aaway? Nagbi-break na? Kami hindi, pababaan na lang ng pride.

Simula nang mapasaakin siya, ang dami nang nagbago, lagi ko na siyang hinahanap sa tuwing wala siya, sa tuwing may ka-text siyang iba, nagseselos ako. Alam mo yun? nararamdam mo parang nalilito ka na, ewan ko kung bakit…yung gf ko ngayon yung medyo maarte pero masaya kasama, tapos masakit mangurot yan alam mo ba yun? Pag kinukurot nga ako niyan naku! ang hapdi, lalo na kapag nangagat, bumabaon, pero okay lang naman kasi siya ang may gawa.

Nagkikita lang kami kung saan-saan, hanggang sa nag-away kami, hindi na ako nakapagpigil dati ayaw niya kasi akong papuntahin sa kanila kasi nga baka daw magalit parents niya, eh one time na nag-away kami, hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko, pinuntahan ko talaga sila sa kanila hanggang sa ayun nga nakilala ko na magulang niya. Ayaw niya nga nung, ayaw pa nga, ayaw pala ng magulang niya na nasa labas kami, pero siya natatakot na baka sabi, baka iba sabihin nang mama niya magalit sa amin. Naitindihan ko naman siya pero gusto ko talagang makilala magulang niya kahit na medyo kinakabahan ako, hanngang sa ayun nakilala ko na, nakilala ko na family niya, sina tita, sina tito, sina tito Ton-ton, si lola, mga pinsan niya sina Donna, sabi ko, “sa wakas cez nakilala ko na rin magulang niya” kahit parang minsan ayaw niya akong papuntahin doon, pero inisip ko pa rin, di ba nga mahal mo? kaya inintindi ko na lang, tiis-tiis na lang.

Pero sa totoo lang gusto ko yung ugali niya, tipong hindi siya ma, tipong magsasalita pag nagalit, alam mo yun? nakaka-miss yung ganun, bigla kang pipikonin. Dadaanin ka sa mga kung ano-ano tapos bandang huli lalambingin. Na-miss ko na rin yung mga araw na dalawa lang kami, nag-uusap, nagkukulitan, naglalaro, nagtatawanan. Pero sa isang araw sigurado ako imposibleng hindi kami mag-aaway, ganun pa man (someone cough) nagpapasalamat ako, kasi napasaakin ang tulad niya kahit minsan hindi ko na minsan gusto ang ugali niya pero okay lang bata pa kasi, pero siya yung batang, batang malawak ang isip, batang nakapagpabago sa akin. Kung tutuusin, ayaw ko na siyang mawala eh, dahil siya ang dahilan kung bakit, eto ganto, masarap pala ang magmahal, sa kanya ko natutunan yun, gusto ko palagi sana makasama ko na siya, kaso wala siya ngayon eh. Nami-miss ko na siya, sobra.

Nga pala eto ang masasabi ko para sa kanya, ahmm…ingat ka, ingat ka diyan palagi, miss na miss na kita sobra, mahal na mahal kita. Sana huwag kang bumitaw, ipaglaban natin kung ano man meron tayo ngayon. Kung mahal mo ako gagawin natin ‘to, hindi para lang sa akin para din sa iyo, hwag sana tayong susuko, hawak kamay lang kaya natin ‘to. Mahal na mahal kita, I love you so much more. Sana pag nakita mo ‘to, ma-realize mo na may naghihintay sa iyo, isang taong nagmamahal habang nabubuhay ka. Sana nga mapangasawa na talaga kita, kasi nga sobrang mahal na mahal kita. Kahit ano pang sabihin mo, wala akong paki-alam, kahit ayaw mo na hindi ako susuko, para sa iyo gagawin ko ang lahat. I love you Annshirl Reyes, taga --- I love you so much. Sana patuloy ka lang jan. Miss you na. I love you, bye. Seventeen.

MJL loves AOR

MJL loves AOR

Posted by addyict 05:54 Archived in Philippines Tagged love Comments (0)

Seventh Year

October 28

Pitong taon na rin pala ang nakalipas, pitong taon na rin hindi ko naririnig ang boses ng aking ama. Hanggang ngayon ang naiisip ko na nasa Riyadh lang siya working for our future. Yun nga lang pitong taon na rin siyang hindi nagbabakasyon.

Tandang-tanda ko pa yung huli naming pagkikita sa Riyadh. Nagmano lang ako sa kanya ni hindi ko man lang siya niyakap dahil dala na rin marahil sa aking personality. Kung alam ko lang na yun ang huling pagkikita namin ay niyakap at hinalikan ko ng buong puso ang aking ama. Bago pa ang pagkikita iyon ay sa Al Khobar, winter season noon, pabiro niya akong niyaya na magsu-swimming daw kami. Syempre dahil sa alam ko naman na nagbibiro lang siya ay hindi ako sumama. Nag-fishing lang siya kasama ang kanyang mga kaibigan. Again, kung alam ko lang na yun ang mga ala-alang dadalhin ko hanggang ngayon sana ay mas napaganda ko pa ang mga huli naming pagkikita.

Papa, alam kong nasa Maylikha ka na. Patuloy n'yo pa rin sana na gabayan kami at iparamdam sa amin ang iyong pagmamahal. Miss ka na po namin lalo na ni mommy at nang dalawa ninyong anak. Alam ko, hindi man nila sabihin sa akin. Higit sa lahat mahal na mahal ka po namin. Muli salamat sa lahat ng pagmamahal ni binigay ninyo sa amin.

Yes, seven years has passed and yet the pain is still here, it never leave us, we only got used to it.

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Posted by addyict 06:58 Archived in Philippines Comments (0)

Performance Evaluation

all seasons in one day 22 °C

Sorry kung wala akong naging blog entries for this month. Marami naman ang nangyari pero talagang naging busy lang talaga ako with work and to our on-going basketball tournament.

I must admit, exciting din pala ang manood nang basketball especially kung mga cuties, pero kung puro shrimpy lang naman hindi bale na. Pero sometimes kahit hindi kagwapuhan basta magaling sa basketball, effect na. =)

Hindi naging maganda ang simula ang araw ko, pero napaganda eto nang ibigay ng amo ko ang aking Employee Performance Evaluation. With all modesty, yours truly got an outstanding remark, the highest recognition an employee can get. As a proof you can find below the said evaluation. My apology if I have to cropped the said document to protect our company and our management, aside form the fact na this is supposed to be a confidential document. =)

Employee Performance Evaluation

Employee Performance Evaluation

See paid-off lahat ng aking pagod at mga trabahong out of the box or out of my job scope kasi na-satisfy ko naman sila at binigyan naman nila ako ng fair remark.

Let me close this story by quoting my boss comment,

"Addy, you deserved this perfomance evaluation rate and we expect you will maintain that way."

Well that's what will I do with His blessings and guidance.

So that's it for now. Until next time. Cheers! =)

Posted by addyict 07:18 Archived in Philippines Comments (0)

Ang mga amo ko at ako

sunny 45 °C

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I just want to share this anecdote with you and I lift all the praises and glory to our Lord God Almighty in Jesus name.

Just a minute ago while I was preparing my pouch for our head office for delivery, my supervisor (SAH) approached me and told me that our Sr. Project Manager, YAA is happy and satisfied with my performance as a PMT*1 secretary reliever which will be by the way until July 8. Honestly, I don't know how to react the moment he told me the good news. To give you a little background of our Sr. Project Manager, he is very keen and sensitive to all our moves and works we are doing. One wrong move, then he'll shout at you that almost everyone in the building hears it. I had that experienced together with my colleague one day and I promise to myself it will not happen no more. Sadly, it happened again when a group of my colleagues decided to go out during work time to do personal errand. Perhaps you know what transpired next. Yes, your guessed is right, he yelled at me right in front of other co-workers at the conference room. The only words that came out to my lips was "I'm sorry". Upon hearing it, silence came and I left the room for lunch. Anyway, that was a history. Now, what matter most is that his pleased, contented and satisfied with my performance and hopefully it will reflect to my upcoming SMP*2 performance evaluation this coming August 2011.

We'll see and I will keep you posted.

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  • 1 PMT - Project Management Team
  • 2 SMP - Supplemental Manpower

Posted by addyict 06:47 Archived in Saudi Arabia Comments (2)

Sad me ='(

rain

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I don't know but this is what I feel the whole day today. Something is missing, something is lacking. Until finally, I read this message from one of the social networks, and it says:

"... that when you feel down, look at yourself through God's eyes. There are times when no matter how hard you try, you just cannot accept yourself as you are. During such times, think of how you look to God's eyes. In God's eyes, there is no judgment, there is only acceptance. God sees your light when all that you can see are your shadows. God loves you more than anyone could ever love you as you really are."

After reading it, somehow it lessens the despondent feeling that I have. They say it happens to all and most especially to a single person like me who only wants to love and in return to be loved. Who only wants to have a family that I can call my own but I guess the possibility of having one is far from the reality. I have planned my future of being a single but still hoping to have someone who will be by my side until the last breath I will inhale.

I can easily buy sex but not true love, I can easily buy company but not true friends, I can basically buy anything and everything but I cannot buy the real happiness of having them all and I know it from the depth of my heart.

Someone told me that I will just have to pray fervently and maybe my dream of having someone and a family of my own might come true. I hope it will happen sooner, but if not, I’m still blessed because I have my mom, sister and brother and a friend I can call my own. Most of all I have Him who loves me unconditionally.

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Posted by addyict 06:53 Archived in Philippines Comments (2)

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